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Great Things Coming!

I have some great things coming to this blog, but will take me a little time to get all together. It’s going to be great. This will be under construction until I have it all set up.

I also will have great things happening on my second blog. I am going to work on both blogs, but this one will need more work. My advice and none television will go to my second blog from now on.

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I finally have found my camera and have been thinking of maybe doing video blogs of my shows and what I think of the episode (when I watch the episode). Still debating if I should do this or not. Give me your feedback on it. It’s just an idea.

It’s A Disease

We all have issues, all have problems in our lives. We try our hardest to get over things, to get past the difficulties, to become stronger. But are we truly strong? When we fall what does it mean? No matter what we go through it is all some kind of disease from drugs, abuse, depression, etc. All of these are some kind of disease that each day have to overcome. Some days we are doing great and the next we are falling apart. How do we get past all of the demons, all the whispering, all the labels people put on us?

No matter where we are in life, no matter what we are doing we are fighting demons. Everyone goes through some kind of obstacle and each day we have to make that decision to not allow it to get the best of us. A lot of times we fall and don’t know how to pick up the pieces.

I have been fighting with something for a very long time, I don’t like talking about it and for a while I was okay and got over it. We somehow begin to fall though and forget how we got up the first time. For me, that’s were I am in my life. Each day is a struggle of the demons bringing me down, voices in my head telling me to just give up, but I am not allowing it to get the last word. I hate talking about my feelings and hate telling people about my problems that’s why when I see people I have the biggest smile on my face. It’s kind of weird for me when I am around people it’s like I numb my feelings and don’t have to think about things and instead be myself.

When we are alone that’s when we lose ourselves! If you are struggling with anything tell someone, getting help doesn’t make you small, it shows you want to control your own life. Never judge someone with what they are going through because it could be very hard for them even if it looks so easy for you. Remember everyone is different and instead of judging show support.

My Life!

I have decided I will start blogging on my second blog on my life. What is going on and how my day has been. I will also write a few advises here and there.

I Will Never Understand

When your in high school you see all these people who will go so far in life. They have all this potential and you just know they will make it far. Then three years later it’s the total opposite of where you thought they would be and not in a good way.

When I was in high school everyone was friends with everyone. The smart kids were the cheerleaders or football players. Our class was not what most high schools are portrayed as. A lot of my friends were in cheer, dancing, or ap classes. Most of them I knew were going to be big in whatever they were going in within the next few years.

After high school I lost contact with basically everyone, but still had them as a friend on Facebook. It’s been over 4 years since I have graduated (wow can’t believe it’s been that long already) and most of the people I talked to either have kids and don’t go to school or work at a fast food place. It’s crazy how 4 years can change someone’s life.

The crazy thing is these people had so much potential and now have thrown it away. Don’t get me wrong some are great parents and kudos to you for having kids at a young age, but I don’t understand it. The reason I don’t is because I know I can’t take care of myself financially and thinking of having a kid in the mix is just even worse. The saddest thing is some have 2-3 kids and most all have different baby daddies.

Our generation and the next generations are getting worse and worse. If your not ready to have a kid and can not support yourself don’t have kids. Do you and succeed in life then bring in a child and make sure you won’t struggle. Remember whatever you go through it’s worse for a child to go through.


We all have people in our lives that are negative. They are either angry about the world, their own lives, or they will do anything to bring you down to their misery. No matter what in life we will always have people like this. They are everywhere and sometimes we don’t notice it until it’s too late to do anything about it. How do we get past this? How do we avoid the negativity in this world? It is simple, but harder than it sounds. You need the mindset, physically and mentally you need to be on the right path.

Anyone and everyone will do anything they can to bring you down as they are down. That they are unhappy, they have to make sure everyone else around them are just as miserable as they are. More than half the time we don’t even notice when a person is being negative until a few weeks or even months later, then you begin to notice you are doing the same thing. When you hang out with someone for a long period of time you begin to act like them and think the way they think. We never notice it until someone different comes in our lives and you notice how you think is differently from the person you have been around for a period of time.

One of the hardest things is seeing someone you care about start to become a horrible person. A family member you have been close with for years and grew closer then someone comes back into their lives and within months you notice this person you care about is not the same person anymore. What do you do? You can’t stand being around them because the way they speak to you and everyone else is rude and obnoxious. You don’t want to cut them off, but that is the only option. One of the hardest things in life is when someone so close to you starts to become a stranger as you grow apart. Sometimes you can’t really do anything about it and just let it be, hoping someday you will become close again.

No matter what in life someone will be negative towards you, your career, what you are doing, what you want to. These people will not stop and all you have to do is brush it off and not allow them to get the best of you. It may suck especially if you are close with this/ person/people, but you need to think of yourself and make sure you are happy where you are going and happy with your life. Never allow someone define you! Never allow someone stop you from being the best you can ever be! Follow your dreams no matter what anyone says to you.


Sundays are days I would love to go places and just enjoy my day off. The last few Sundays, I haven’t done anything and just been lazy. Work days have been the worst that I have been in those moods were I don’t want to do anything except to sleep or be lazy. It’s the worst thing to do I can’t help it.

6 days a week over 50 hours I am dealing with so many people, being that I think I would rather be alone and not do anything or talk to anyone the rest of the day. I actually can’t wait for things to slow down at work, but I also love the craziness. I know I’m weird that craziness is something everyone tries to avoid. For me it helps me not to think, instead to focus on the big picture and focus at work with what I need to do.