Lots on my mind and lots of things going on the past few days. I haven’t been feeling well, and been sleeping every day when I got home. Today was the worst I have felt. I’m not to sure what is wrong, but my intestines and stomach have been killing me. I’m trying to figure out what is wrong and get better. I will still try to do post when I’m feeling a little better.
I have been thinking of what to else I will do. I will have a top 5-10 list of shows that have been great this year. I will have this up in a few weeks keep an eye out on it.
I have been thinking about writing on things that have changed my life and would like to share with all of you. I will soon write the first one. I have a paper I wrote for one of my classes that to me has one of my favorite papers to write and I will post it.
I forgot to post day four yesterday so I am doing four and five together. I may be behind on this, but I just started watching Duck Dynesty. I always thought it would be dumb and lame, but it’s the total opposite. It’s such a good show and the guys are hilarious. I love the family values they have and how family is important to them. We don’t see that on tv anymore and it’s refreshing. When you see someone having family value it makes them a better person. Well that’s how I see it. I don’t watch reality tv anymore, but this show I do watch.
What is going on with this world? What is going on with this generation? These drugs? Things are getting worse and worse with this world. Not just the people, but the world as a whole. This is not the life we are suppose to live, there is so much sin going on. It sickens me to see how this generation acts. Not only this generation, but it seems like it is happening to everyone. We have all these influences from television, music, artists, etc. that kids are acting out. Parents are not even parents as they are still kids, yet are raising children of their own. People who can’t take care of their own or support themselves bring in a life and not parent them. I’m not talking about young parents who do raise their children and teach them from right and wrong. I am talking about parents and kids who are acting out. These days kids are either dying, doing drugs, acting tough, killing, stealing, etc. Yet who is to blame? Parents are suppose to protect, teach morals, give life lessons to kids and yet none do now a days. It baffles me with everything that I see. We all have been at that age were we want to be cool and fit in, but not this. Kids are so disrespectful and cruel. They act like they are 30, but are really act like they are 7. Kids have no morals towards anyone! What is going on with this world? People need to stop being mean, cruel, selfish and actually be a good person.
When things get tough, everything seems to be falling apart one by one. Not knowing exactly what to do, where to turn, or why it’s happening now?! That moment when everything seems like it’s going good, but you know something is about to happen and not sure when the other shoe is about to drop. What do you do? Do you just wait? Shake the feeling off? Start a war? Be prepared? Vent to someone?
Life isn’t always peachy. Things don’t always go right sometimes they make a turn. Are you ready for that? When things get tough sometimes your not sure what to do. Always questioning what move you will take, knowing what to do next time, or letting others know you will be venting soon. We all have ways to vent, ways to tackle stress when it comes our way, ways to prevent something getting you in a downward spiral. Are you prepared?
I know I’m not. I never am. I don’t have that many friends and frankly I don’t trust anyone truly to talk about my feelings. I don’t mean it as I don’t trust anyone, but I hate talking about my feelings and don’t think anyone will understand me fully. I always bottle things up and either listen to music or watch a new tv show. I become anti-social and stay home pretty much all the time besides going to work. I make sure no one knows I’m sad or depressed and instead tell them I’m great and I am a bit stressed, but I’m handling it. It’s really bad and I need to work on it, but how can I?! Every time I make a new friend it’s either they always talk about their own problems and never want to hear mine or they walk out of my life after a few months. Sometimes I believe I am a boring person or I’m just annoying. I’m not to sure what it is, but it sucks. Seeing everyone have friends and relationships with others just saddens me that I don’t have that with anyone. No one has the same values, things in common, or anything interests. I sometimes wish I could meet someone who understands me and will always be there for me. I maybe overthinking it, but that’s life. Getting over things within time as days go by and I will be fine and yet the same feeling will arise again in a few weeks or months.
We all have stories and people who surround us with positivity. Sometimes they are not there and you deal with things on your own. We need to learn to be our number one support system instead of looking for someone else to be it. Believe in yourself!
Day 3: I haven’t been on trips this year as I was last year, but one city I absolutely love and one day will move to is Boston. The atmosphere, the people, the food is just amazing. Everyone talks about visiting New York, Miami, LA, and San Fran; not me. I loved New York, Chicago, and Miami, but Boston has my heart. It’s hard to explain exactly what it is that I love about Boston it’s just when I went to see it for the first time I was in awe and felt like I was home. That place was the first time for a lot of things for me. For example: first time I had beer and actually enjoyed it, bar hopped every single night, went to a cementary(yes it’s weird, but I enjoyed it), literally had beer for breakfast, lunch, and dinner, and so much more. Every night I was there was a night I didn’t want to end. Waking up at 6am and going to bed by 12am was the best days of my life. Not only did I do all that, but I also went to a lot of historical places, walked at the place where our founders walked on. The history is just WOW!!!! I know about the history, but actually walking and visiting the places is breath taking. Boston is a place everyone needs to go and visit. One place that will always have my heart and I will one day live there!
I am so behind on a lot of shows and that fall finales have aired or will be soon I can catch up not only my committed shows, but also shows I haven’t seen all season. What’s worse is that I told myself I will not start a new show until next summer and I have already started a bunch of new shows. I am on my second new show I started watching not to long ago and almost starting on my third. I know it’s bad, but the weird thing is the shows I’m watching now most of them are a miss and not doing anything for me.
I have missed 3-5 episodes on quite a few shows I was keeping up with because it’s either being too predictable for me or it’s just getting boring or both. I’m not saying the show is bad, but for me it’s looking my interest. For example I am loosing interest on scandal which is weird because it’s a really good show. But for me it’s way too predictable as in I already know what will happen next. The shockers in the show are not shockers to me anymore. It’s with a lot of shows I’m not sure if I’m just bored and want something exciting to happen and it doesn’t happen. The same thing is with revenge.
These new shows though are beyond good and will talk more about them and what shows they are on my days! So keep an eye out and see what shows I’m obsessed with and what new shows I recommend.
Day two: One of my new obsessions this year is shopping online. I rarely ever shopped online and didn’t really want to shop online just because I always thought it would be cheaper and better if I seen it in person. After a little while I decided to do a little online shopping and now I am totally obsessed with online shopping. It makes things so much easier and don’t have to make a whole lot of time to shop online. Something’s I don’t buy online just that I don’t know if it will look good on me or if in person it will look good. With Christmas around the corner that’s all I will be doing. No more hectic crazy lines, crazy people, or big crowds at the mall to shop for presents.